While Anna snored with her headphones in, I paced by the window like a caged lion wishing to be freed. My lungs were constricting from the stagnant air in this room – this small room that was closing in on me with every passing minute. I paused, stared out into the woods – the cool, spacious woods.
I then thought of him. If my admirer had visited last night, he hadn’t left a flower. I had talked myself out of being disappointed all day, for mine and Levi’s sakes. I hadn’t dreamt of him last night, either. Did that mean something? Part of me wished it did, but part of me wished it didn’t. A bigger part of me wished it didn’t.
I stepped closer to the window and sighed, wishing to be free and inside the woods… with him. With that feeling he gave me. At this excruciating, claustrophobic moment, nothing in the world sounded better.
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color: #000000"> I gnawed on my lip with my eyes closed, an idiotic idea brewing inside me. No way. I would be the biggest moron in the world if I tried to escape to the woods tonight. With people being abducted and police everywhere, it was too risky.
I glanced at my tennis shoes by the closet and back to the window. Which would win? My insatiable desire to feel free and feel him, or my reasoning. And Levi - venturing into the woods would be a step in the opposite direction of where I was trying to take our relationship.
Shit. Shit, shit, shit. This should have been an obvious, easy decision.
And then I felt it – that pull. That pull I couldn’t deny. The itch in my heart longing to be scratched; as if a piece inside of me belonged there in the woods.
I went for my shoes.